. squaring .
I spoke with Danny; he said what everyone does now. "You must find a way to move on" but he's Romanian and so the English was a slight bit different; you know we writers and our alterations to realities in attempts to make our points both subtle and clearer ... we are the best of cultural liars.
I'm avoiding, these days, a lot of what I had assumed were safe positions; well protected, concealed, mixed in with the native populations ... I found that allies pull a Taliban; shooting in the wrong directions. I no longer bunker though, so that's at least one improvement, (toes.crossed) in remnants of hope.
There was a voice here on
Silly girl,
Whose eyes rain crystals,
Why do you wish to heal?
Do you not understand the beauty
Of your ability to feel?
Silly girl,
Whose grin’s so bright,
Why do you wish to change?
A soul with no emotion
Would appear to be quite strange.
Silly girl,
Whose face is dull,
Why do you live this myth?
You choose to be a shadow,
Smashing daisies with your fist.
Silly girl,
With wounds and scars,
Why have you chosen this death?
No, sinking into your own grave
Would be better than such regret.
Silly girl,
You’ve started to feel,
Just recently you’ve started to cry.
You’ve been down this path again and again,
With a pain
I don't wanna look back I wanna move forward
I don't want to dwell ..
although my book is most about my past it is a self-proclamation
toward the future.. no time to explain
I'm already 5 chapters in AGE 13-15 were cat and mouse games with heartache .. but most of the bulk of the story..
:) healing old wounds yet again but this time the bandage will stick
and sign it ME :)
I'm writing my story in the form of a book my dream.. and no matter the out come I feel so much better baring my scars for all to see .. ive told the only ones Ive felt ashamed would know and im not afraid of who I am .. and im tired of pretending to be someone im not..
I want a lot of things out of life but the way I get them truly matters to me.. the dream of winning the lottery is a common one but if someone you love is gone too soon after that money isn't worth a penny.. and all my mistakes were made as lessons ive learned and theyre mine to be made I cant blame others for them only myself.. and im truly happy I can do that.. my daughter
I need to focus on me...
I will write and I may return again in the future
but I no longer need love and attention but thanx for your it ..
ill see ya around .. :)